D for DebRa; D for Domination

Today - 270112

2012-01-26T09:39:00.000-08:00

It always brings back memories on this day - 2701.

I must say, I made peace with my past. That person whom I really wanted to spear is gone to a faraway place. I have learn much from those moments lived with her. The times when I cried over the sorrow she gave me were so memorable. I have come back much stronger now because of that. Thank you so much.

It has been 3 years since. She has never initiated any form of connection - not at all. Our friendship was just thrown away like that. It hurts so bad. I really would want to be her friend again deep down. But what the heck, why treasure those that don't care about you?? Neh?

Time just flies. Very soon, she'll return again. This time, I am ready. I am waiting for your return. I am going to give you HELL.

xoxo-DeburaVanity

In the year 2012

2012-01-03T18:38:00.000-08:00

I would like to accomplish the following :-
1. Get a job and get promoted
2. Meet a particular cosplayer in person and have a picture taken.
3. Sleep early ( like 11.00pm )
4. Eat healthy.
5. Visit Japan.

New years resolution some may call it. Yup. I will move my life towards this.

BACK

2011-12-23T09:59:00.001-08:00

time to revive this dead blog.
I have so many things up and running in my mind.. I really really have to do something about my life.

Its pathetic.

I M FREE

2011-12-13T18:56:00.001-08:00

At last... exams are over.. what I will do now is THINK PASS.!!!!!! :) And of course... clean my room!!!

41 days to 1 Dec

2011-10-20T20:34:00.000-07:00

And I have to be prepared for my 4 final ACCA papers. How how how?? this would make it like approx 10 days to one paper. Can I do it?????

I MUST PASS. I must believe I can. I must!!!!!!!!!!!!

Efficiency mode : ON!!!!

Too much distraction

2011-10-10T01:31:00.000-07:00

Why can't I just study in peace???????
There are so many stuff going on in my mind and I am gonna burst.

Okay. Clear off my mind. It is blank it is empty. It is full of knowledge of P2345 and I am gonna pass

I will be

2011-10-06T19:23:00.000-07:00

I will be the best you never had. I will chase after perfection. Give me time. say... 3 months?

Flooded by stress

2011-09-21T11:03:00.000-07:00

but then again... its not considered super stressful yet. I can still cope.
Been watching lots of anime recently - changed the Seikon no Qwaser II DVD for something better.
Speaking of Seikon no Qwaser II anime DVD, to all those Malaysian fans out there, DO NOT PURCHASE that anime DVD. It is not worth your money. As y'all know, this series is very very NSFW ( not to the stage of hentai, of course). So they censored a whole load of it (you know what they censored, don't you?) - you'll see black spots and your expression will turn like =.='''''''''''' Its is so WTH.
Watching that with the censored part is like watching YAOI minus the kissing, watching some vulgar movie with lots of bleeps in it..... You WILL get annoyed. and when you do, you'll regret buying.
So, before you actually regret, here's a warning sign of NOT TO BUY that title in Malaysia.

I was annoyed. I really am. Not like that co who produce that DVD will ever care about fans. they obviously only care about $$$.
I changed it for Nurarihyon no Mago in case you're wondering. Not bad not bad.
I am currently watching NO.6 and Nurarihyon no Mago. I am happier.
As for studies, I am trying hard to catch up.

And that marks the end of something.

2011-09-18T20:42:00.000-07:00

My friend gave me back my belongings. Its all over - our friendship. No point looking back and regret or wish how things could have been. Its all gone for good. I am not sad. I will put up and strong and happy face for everyone to see.
Despite all this... you still come back to me in dreams. We are friends in that dimension. I am satisfied. I won't ask for more.
Dakara, life is good from now on.

Amazing shiz.

2011-09-07T01:56:00.000-07:00

This is AMAZING.

Please watch it if you have no clue what it is.
Kyahhh.... Akira Ishida's voice.
I will definately watch this when it comes out.

SO MUCH LOVE.

YAY

2011-08-23T00:18:00.000-07:00

I passed all that I took last sitting. YEAY!!!!!!
I would like to thank God, my toys, and PZ for giving me so much support during the last 6 months. I wouldn't have been here if it ain't for y'all. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH.

I must really work hard for this final push. My toys and Bangkok is my motivation.

JW,YF,Y are waiting for me there... I will see you guys someday. The thought of it makes me run forward. and you'll be the people I will thank in my future success.

I am currently watching : Gosick.

Not bad. Got me attached. ahahahhah... :)

Oh no... results are coming out soon

2011-08-17T21:02:00.000-07:00

You heard me right. The ACCA results are coming out on the 22nd Aug. Fuck!

I MUST PASS ALL I HAVE TOOK LAST SITTING!!!!!!!

Okay... now.. I really have to focus on my studies.. don't play too much.. and don't let my thoughts stray awayy. 4 papers. I can do it. I believe so. YOSH!!!

Its 2.25am in the morning

2011-08-12T11:30:00.000-07:00

and I am not asleep. O.o

Now.. I would like to babble about .... people.

I just came to know a person, she's really nice. I wanna know her better. AHAHAHHA. Maybe I should put faith in people again, or maybe not. Hmm... still very uber lost.
Yup. I am quite sure I wanna migrate to Bangkok and open a toy shop there. Kyahhh.. so much love.

As for now. I guess I better sleep and wake up early in the morning. STUDEHHH!!! :D

And now...

2011-08-08T01:59:00.000-07:00

To formulate a plan to achieve my ideals.
1. Need moolah for PS
2. Need to blast the fats away
3. Need to clothe myself with a Victorian era dress... PFFT

SO MUCH FOR COSPLAY.
Next...... Find a Photograher. Or be one myself.

Any suggestions? Leave a comment. Domo!

If only time could stop

2011-08-06T19:03:00.000-07:00

I wanna learn so many things!!! like sewing and Thai and Japanese language.
Okay. Maybe all for Cosplaying. WTH?!

Anyways... There's so much to do... and if only I had 48 hours a day and more money....

What matters the most??

2011-08-04T04:51:00.000-07:00

My friend is leaving for some place. Do I have a heavy heart?? Hmm... I have to ask myself this a few times... Maybe not. Oh wells... For me.. It will be moving forward and not looking back. I have to achieve so many things in life and my emotions are the one that is pulling me behind. Sometimes its better to cut off all these ties, no?

I will attend the farewell party and maybe its really goodbye for real. Who knows what will happen neh?

Whatever it is... THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES. :)

Busy..as always.

2011-08-02T08:08:00.000-07:00

In the midst of being busy... I did check out my anime... YAY!!!! I finally finished watching FateStayNight. and currently am watching Durarara and Dantalian no Shoka. Super awesome.

What I love best is that Huey's seiyuu is Daisuke Ono. Kyahhhhh...Sebastian Michaelis!!!

Right.. hmm... better run. update again real soon!!!

I had a dream of you

2011-07-24T20:08:00.000-07:00

again..... after such a long period of your absence, you appeared once again in my dreams. Whyy? Maybe, it was always meant to be just a dream. Oh wells. Nice bumping into you again. Welcome back. :)

I will run forward

2011-07-18T20:42:00.000-07:00

This is one of the random random post that I will make. Ahahaahhaha.

As y'all know, I really want the figurine. but then again, I have to study and think about other things first. Gah. This seriously sucks.

Doing 4 papers is not super hard... its just that there is alot of distractions..like how I have to cook for the people under my roof.. and going out and ...... so many more stuff that I need to. I must be more disciplined!!!! I MUST!

xoxo.

I am going crazyy.

2011-07-17T08:27:00.001-07:00

Awh man.... The most awesome Katsura figurine is outtttttt!!!!!!! I wanna buy. but where's the money?? *sighs* When I total up all the stuff that I want... I feel that I need a whole bank's supply of cash. Why am I broke again? Gahh.

Not only that, I need to study and keep my mind away from all those toy temptations.

and this are my daily doings

2011-07-11T20:37:00.000-07:00

Gah. Everyday just pasts real fast. Its annoying, or maybe it's because I procrastinate too much. Oh wells. I have to study like fuck. and where is my drive???
Oh. speaking of drive, I used to really fancy someone and he became my push for last sem. But this sem, he doesn't seem that important to me already. Why is that?? I don't feel like talking to him and not even wanting to sit with him in class. I find it real troublesome. Argh. What is my problem??

Oh whatever. I am just random. small issues. I have bigger things to deal with. Kyah!

A thought for the future things that I'm gonna buy.

2011-07-09T19:44:00.000-07:00

There are so many stuff that I wanna buy like say... Gintama merchandise, Naruto merchandise, figurines, Nendoroids and EVERYTHING. Yeah, its my obsession. Currently, I won't have enough money to survive if I bought the mentioned.

So according to my allocation of funds, toys come after my perfect face. Dakara, toys,........ wait for me. I will buy all of you back. I promise!!!

and I better get on studying for now.

Cheerios!

Do I feel discouraged?? Heck no.

2011-07-07T08:44:00.000-07:00

and so..people will always laugh when I tell them.. I am taking 4 papers this semester.
Whats so funny?? Are you trying to say that I won't make it?? Whats even more heart-wrenching is that my senpai asked me to pray. Whyyyy?? Just because you can't do it, doesn't mean I can't. I passed 4 papers before okay. and now ..ALL I need is a pass. not like a 100 marks or something.

Encouragement people!!!!! Thank you!

xoxox

YOSH ! Its time to work hard, again.

2011-07-05T07:03:00.000-07:00

Today, is the first class of P2. Its really nice. I mean, the lecturer is funny. I quite enjoy it. I need to really put in alot of effort this round as I intend this time to be my last. I wanna work next year already - no more studying. Therefore, I need to focus all my mind and soul in this. PS, you come later.

I have so many animes to catch up... and I have so little time and resources. Pfft. Nothing to worry, we'll get there soon. Yurp.

The new sem is about to start.

2011-07-03T03:32:00.000-07:00

KYAH. I feel so lazy to start college again. and the day to start working is drawing near. I really wonder how is my first day gonna be like in KPMG ( say, if I work there). Plus, I am not so good in all these accounts stuff. I hope I get a good senpaii.

Next, I really wanna migrate to Bangkok. Personal interest? yeah. personal interest. I really like the culture there and also the people and things. I need to get transferred there it seems and the firms in Bangkok will not just take me in like that because I am not a Thai National and I can't speak Thai. :( This is SAD.
Don't worry, we'll find a way. Mmmph.

I have been really conscious of my appearance lately, and for that, it's driving me insane. Ahh... what can anyone say?

More to say - soon.

Ahh.. my hot cosplayer...

2011-07-01T00:18:00.000-07:00

There's this cosplayer..so hot. I am so star strucked!!!! :) I am so inspired now. I will run towards perfection like how you look so perfect.

Insane doings of me. Oh wells. Someday. People will read this blog and know my beginnings.

I heart ya!!!

Fate Stay Night

2011-06-29T20:46:00.000-07:00

Apart from being obssessed over 'perfection', I started watching Fate Stay Night. Pretty awesome anime so far. (For those Sasuke Uchiha fans, you should watch this cos the main guy's seiyuu is Sasuke's seiyuu )

This girl - Saber is so cute. Okay and Rin too. All pro fighters unlike those cry babies. Ahahhahah.
Here's a pic. :)

All righty, till then. Jaa.

Gintama latest closing song is AWESOME !!!!

2011-06-27T20:23:00.000-07:00

Its called Samurai Heart by Spyair.

I have a soft spot for ya !

2011-06-27T02:42:00.001-07:00

For some reasons, you appeal to me. Be my goal, let me run towards you. To guys, you might be weird and ''gay'' but to me, I really like what you are doing. I will always be there to support whatever you are doing. If you need help in anyway, ask, and I shall be there for you. I promise you that. Thats a bunny promise!!

xoxo

Ohaiyo Gozaimasu !!!!

2011-06-26T20:32:00.000-07:00

Today I woke up late. Slept really late yesterday - Hotel Dash 2 !!!! Awesome shit. but its a baby game. Its super easy to score EXPERT in ALL levels. WTH?!
Anyways, from this post on I shall update y'all with my progress of running after perfection. I have many things to change as I am still human.

Jaa!

Current Quest : Perfect Cosplay

2011-06-26T10:24:00.000-07:00

Things to do :
1. Blast the fats
2. Get the equipments

Now... who shall I cosplay?? Hmm.

more updates to come.

Back in black.

2011-06-25T22:43:00.000-07:00

This Blog is so dead. Period.

Time for a revamp. neh??!
There are times when I have alot alot to write and these are definately not one of those times. I've had enough of rantings and now its time to get serious with life. In other words, time to grow up.

There are so many things I want in life. like toys. I need alot of cash to get em. I am currently very broke. and so. Its okay, I shall find my way through. As of now, I have a few projects to complete.

1) My magical tree.
2) Clean the room
3) Study.

till then. :)

My emotions are stirred.

2011-05-26T10:11:00.000-07:00

Shit no. My fucking emotions. Why are they muddled up?? I told myself I couldn't be bothered. but what is this??? :(

She'll be back next week and I'll have to face her. I need to talk to someone. I have to resolve this.

Stay strong. I must. Think. Japan. Sai. Sogo. Jack. Xerxes. Kamui. L. They are all there for you.

Forever will be.

And once again... exams are coming.

2011-05-21T20:16:00.001-07:00

Yeah. you heard me right. Pfft. Exams.

Here's a list of things to do after exams:
1. Watch Kuroshitsuji II
2. Watch Naruto - latest boxset
3. Earn more $$$ to buy my Sogou Okita Figurine.
4. Set up my livejournal. :)

And we'll have a sale! Yatta!

A display of my precious things....

2011-05-19T09:57:00.000-07:00

HALLO!

I was really bored so I took my camera and snapped a few pics of my precious toys.. :)

MORE TO COME!!!!

What's cookin?!

2011-04-21T19:54:00.000-07:00

Oh no... DebRa needs to get a life man... Ahahahaha. The toy buying disease is back. YABAI. Recently, I've watch a new anime - Death Note.

L is super cute. :D Really. and I need to get the Nendoroid and also the set of nendoroid petit. FUCK. That'll cost me like..RM400? I need to raise funds.

Any idea how? :/

I need to snap back to reality. all these anime and their hot guys... :) Make me so... whatthehell.

End of March.

2011-03-29T18:06:00.000-07:00

Oh wells... Exams are approaching once again... Yeah man! I can't wait!!! I need to finish and get out of here ASAP. NERD much?!

Anyways, to this friend of mine, well, its time that you survive by yourself. I QUIT being your guardian angel. Ahahahah. Like I say, your loss, not mine. ;)

Made up my mind.

2011-03-17T07:20:00.000-07:00

Okay.so, there are people telling me that you are so WANTED by many, maybe that person who told me is jealous of you. In reality, you don't seem to be like the person who treat friends this way. Right?

Now, I am making a choice, a big step of faith to believe you and not someone else. I am so exposed to danger. YABAI. Its bad. but What the heck?!

Going through A FUCKING HARD time...

2011-03-06T21:04:00.001-08:00

yeah... leaving you is hard like I've told you why.. but I have to.. you're too MUCH. See you, BAKA.!

Whyyyy???

2011-03-04T07:04:00.000-08:00

Today, had a talk with a friend. How he told me how you lived in with your girlfriend just kills me. How you only wait for girls to talk to you its horrible. Yeah.. I was the dumb one who took the initiative. I was always the one who asked you out. but you just turn me down over and over again. Have you not thought about my intentions?? Have you not?? I meant good to you but you choose things to be that way. I am left with no choice but to leave you and your miserable life. Goodbye BAKA. Jaa ne!!!!

Yeah man....

2011-03-02T03:31:00.001-08:00

Life's good ..so far...

Sometimes... I do go against my own principles... Yabai! I am not gonna be so friendly to you anymore, RM. Later.

The Final Straw

2011-02-17T16:53:00.000-08:00

Oh wells.. I guess everything has its last chance that makes it the very last. Yup and I guess you used it. I was pushed to the very far end till I have to come to this decision. Looking at you makes me bleed so bad deep down. Hearing you talk is worst. So, I've decided to quit communicating so much. Ahahahahah. We'll see how it goes.

What's on my mind??

2011-02-13T04:08:00.000-08:00

And so... my friend came back. Great! But now.. the problem is..I have nothing to say to him. Am I bored already? or I have given up on him? This is bad innit?

Sometimes... others won't know what they have till its gone. I guess I have to be gone for sometime. After all, he is gaining something from me. Commensalism, you call it? I gain nothing... just losing my time and soul. Bit by bit... some might think I am falling for him.. I would call it..soul ties. I am not actually into him. He is not that great either. but there's this connection between us... I have a soft spot for him.. awh man. Just cut it out already!

I have to keep up with my work. My bestie is leaving for US in August and she won't be back for sometime... I will definately miss her dearly. and I hope that my emotional seal won't be broken. I have to keep it intact! I HAVE TO.

till then..
xoxo,DebRa

Seems dead around here, no?

2011-02-08T07:11:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all,
Hisashiburi dane! Its been quite a while. I have been well. Just that I hafta go study and diet. As y'all know, Chinese New Year is filled with good food and where there's good food... Fats come with it too... Ahahahha..

Anyways, just wanna share this awesome anime that I've been watching lately - Kuroshitsuji. Its called Black Butler in English. The butler himself is super hot. Yabai! I have 4 husbands already. But I'm not including him, don't worry. Here's a pic. :)

Super Hot right??!!!!!! :)

Anyways.. The Click Five has released their new album - TCV. The song ' Don't Let Me Go' is so nostalgic.. For some reasons... Hahahha.

Xoxoxoxoxo, DebRa.

Goodbye friend, for now... :D

2011-01-26T09:26:00.000-08:00

Awh man... friend leaving for 2 weeks... well... Its festive season and he should go back.. hahahahahah... I'll be alright here.. I just pray that all is well with you. You'll be back soon and I am looking forward to that. Everyday.... I'll wait. Ahahahaha. you mean alot to me. But not in that special special way..

Shit you, debRa.

2011-01-12T05:35:00.000-08:00

You cannot resist the temptation... You are a BAKA. Hahahahahahhaha. You should stop for a few days. Seriously.

What am I doing??

2011-01-09T04:35:00.000-08:00

Question asked again and again... What am I doing to myself??

Ahh... The pain that you expose your weakness is overwhelming. I will keep reminding myself of the past that happened over being possesive. Now Its time to change.

Btw, you returned. Yay! I am so happy.. really.
Random weird post. Sorry y'all.

Hard times with myself.

2010-12-27T03:57:00.000-08:00

Yes. I am going through a hard time. The best thing I could think of right now is reading my book ' The house of many ways' by Diana Wynne Jones. I am seeking solace with that.
I still have a weeks work, then I am free to go. I will straighten my hair and go out with my friends whom I so dearly missed.
Things have all changed so much. It has to. No one likes mundane stuff neh?

By the way, my hard time is defined as recovering from being a BAKA when I thought my 'friend' is really different. Some mix of remorse, anger and confusion. Whatever, debRa. its his loss, not yours.

Now.. Imma get back to my stuff - watch Gintama and read my book.

Jaa!

sighs

2010-12-26T07:14:00.000-08:00

One message a day.. how do you want to test my patience?? Okay. you know what... I QUIT. like officially. Be that way. I am trying my very best here and you take it so lightly. FINE then... I move on. Go find someoneelse who is willing to bother you always. Go!

I'll be here - alone with myself and I can do without you.. I think.

Off you go then. Jaa!

Distance makes me grow fonder.

2010-12-22T07:33:00.000-08:00

This post is about a friend who went back to China to past his time away. Pfft.

'' I wanted to talk to you like everyday. I have this idea since the week before exam when you told me that you'll stop going online so much because of exams. But after exams, you just left and I am left behind here, alone. Many a times I wanted to talk to you, but there seems to be a obstacle in between. I don't blame you for that. I don't want to be possesive like how I was before. You are very important to me. Don't ask why. Well. I really don't want to just give up like that. I want to hold on. But it is hard. Very hard. It hurts when things I see remind me of you, and you are not there. Maybe I shouldn't expect so much. Haha. Everything changes and I will have to change someday. But since I am still me for this moment, let me help you out as much as I can. No one will know how long we both will survive in this world, and no one knows when my favour towards you will disappear. Lets live in the moment while we still can. I am tired of chasing after something that keeps hiding away. I am on the verge of giving up.I am tired. I want to quit. Should I??''

Yes y'all.. I am suffocating here because of the internal conflicts in my brain. I need a break from all these madness.

DebRaVanity

Remind me who you are again...

2010-12-18T08:48:00.000-08:00

YOU .. are just an ordinary kid. I quit being so nice. and thats the last. But your mind tells you otherwise... Yamero.Yamero. Yamero. Internal conflicts.... Urgh.

You...

2010-12-01T20:03:00.000-08:00

Distance makes the heart fonder doesn't it?? :) It sure does.. I am already missing you though its just a week since we last talked. Pfft.

Told myself that I'll surpress my feelings and I kinda suck at it. But anyhow.. I will go all the way for you. You know that. Lets study and study... We'll make it through, together.

xoxo,DebRa.

Someday...

2010-11-26T18:26:00.000-08:00

Someday..my body will fail me. Just like everything else.. Its torturous... but I kinda like the pain..
Why should I live to see the day you leave this earth? Because you might leave before I do when your lungs give in. I know I'll be so broken, because you will be my best friend.

What shit am I talking about right?? Lets get back to studying. Mmmhh!

Mental call...

2010-11-25T07:44:00.000-08:00

GO ONLINE...GO ONLINE...GO ONLINE...GO ONLINE...GO ONLINE...GO ONLINE...

to 0403088..

Remorse...

2010-11-24T07:34:00.000-08:00

Dear .............,
I hope you quit smoking.. Everytime you need that fix my heart bleeds like hell. I want you to live longer I want you to be healthier. You deserve everything good. and I am running after something that moves forward and I can't catch you.. Don't stop. Keep going. and I will keep chasing. You motivate me like alot..

Onegai! :)

xoxo, DebRa.

Block you outta my mind.

2010-11-21T18:15:00.000-08:00

Gosh... stop thinking bout 'em.. Its so annoying.. STOP STOP!!!!! I promise myself I will stop.

I walk alone.

2010-11-19T04:26:00.000-08:00

There's no one next to me. I kinda liked the feeling. Ever since you left for UK, yeah. I thought my world shattered. Its rebuilding back again. Like in war movies... the people rebuild the city walls after the war subsided. My defence is strong, I can safely say that.

Oh gosh.. Whats with me?? I promised the sunshine to myself. I will be like the sun - happy. YES. I will.

exam blues.. Toodles.

I bought my boxset!!!!!!!

2010-11-13T16:29:00.000-08:00

Yay Yay Yay!!! My boxset is finally in my hands.. I am gonna limit myself to 1 disc per week only.. Reason?? Exams are near. O.o

Oh wells... After exams.. Lets start Gintama. :D

Study!!!

2010-11-08T04:22:00.001-08:00

Exam is near... I'd better be studying.. hardcore. Gotta pass all 4 papers this round.. Rely on myself.. not tips. But I do need tips still.. :)

I will revamp the blog when I am uber free.. :) Promise..

Time to study

2010-11-03T08:37:00.001-07:00

TIME TO STUDY!!!!!

Imma beat you, RM. >:)

We're so alike..

2010-10-31T00:47:00.000-07:00

OMG.. we share so many similarities.. Destiny?? Haha. I'm not thinking it this way.

I must study now.. anyone wanna sponsor me some of my fav toys?? I wanna buy this.

Buy for me?? Anyone?

Extraordinary.

2010-10-27T03:42:00.000-07:00

You are extraordinary and I am charmed. Really. But I shall not be so hyper when you're around. I'll just put on my Pokerface. I am good at that. Haha.

I hope you'll succeed in life. You're hardworking and you deserve it. I would help you if you want..
;) Smile. and I'll smile back at you.

Sorry peeps.. another one of my random message to someone extraordinary.

xoxo, Vanity

Seems like I've gotta delay my Naruto post.... :/

2010-10-21T04:02:00.000-07:00

Well.. I guess VBG is only releasing the new Naruto boxset next month... I hate waiting... Argh..
OR MAYBE...
Its time I should study.

Yeah.. I am working my ass off. :)

Ock-to-berr..

2010-10-05T17:53:00.000-07:00

Its October already... Time sure passes real fast. The new Naruto boxset will be out soon but its next month. Yay!!! I can't wait. Its gonna be so awesome.

Hmm... I guess I have reconciled with my past. I don't dream about my friend anymore.Seems that I have let her go. Now, I am having some nice friends in my new college.

I've learn so much from my past experience and I won't repeat it again. What do you call this, Growing up? I guess it could be defined this way.

I do look forward to go to college everyday but especially on Tuesdays despite having long days. And I am going to study HARDCORE from this month on..exams is coming and I want to be ready.

Yoshh. This is where I leave the world to its own business. Eto... maybe I shall post bout my boxset next..neh??! ;)

Note to self: Don't go online so often... Study to beat him in studies. Vanity FTW!!! :)

I M not obssessed.

2010-09-30T21:34:00.000-07:00

Haha.. sometimes when I think about it.. I laugh... there's this guy..He's charming, really. but definately not my age. He is funny at times. He's SO MECHANICAL. Do you need normal friends?.. you look like you're from Mars... We're on earth btw.

I think I'm falling...

2010-09-28T18:17:00.000-07:00

There's this really charming guy.. and I don't know what to say. I don't wanna go through a hard time again... and I'll just stick with Sai. Neh??

xoxo, debRa

Cute obsession of mine..

2010-09-22T00:17:00.000-07:00

You want?? Click here..

Hey friend.. I know I fucked up

2010-09-21T03:12:00.000-07:00

My friend.. left for the UK and she didn't tell me. Oh wells. Its the end anyways... I am going to perform an exorcism soon... Seems that you have to be the first to leave. I HATE YOU SO MUCH.

I made a mess previously and I apologized but you are just having a cold war... Fine with me.

My first Auction..

2010-09-20T16:41:00.000-07:00

I auctioned for something at ebay for the first time.. yeah.. Noob, I know.. but it was fun and I won.. :D
The item was really worth it.. mmh mmh *nods*

Tell you what it is soon when I've received it.. :) Can't wait!!!

Vanity

The time is almost here to say goodbye.

2010-09-16T20:03:00.000-07:00

Poor Itachi... the time has come.. My next boxset.. I'll miss you.. okay.. you're my fav akatsuki now... :D

Jaa ne... :'/

Bonds? I'd like to learn more about them..

2010-08-26T20:17:00.000-07:00

''If people change... then so can I. But some things never change. Bonds. I'd like to learn more about them." -Sai, Naruto-

Thats more like it Sai.. you make me proud... :D:D

Anyways, I finished my boxset already and now... I have to wait for next month to come... Fuck A Duck.

I better concentrate on ACCA. Ikuze!!!

Ps: I'm very into Anime now... so totally different from who I was 2 years ago... funny how I changed. I used to despise people who watch anime, but now... its different. I prefer the eastern side of the world now... :)

xoxo, Vanity.

Jaa ne, tomodachi.

2010-08-24T09:29:00.000-07:00

Heard from a friend that she's going away... feeling a little fuzzy now...

But we'll meet in dreams right?? Yup. Thats the best comfort I can give to myself..

All the hard work paid off.

2010-08-22T23:21:00.000-07:00

Yes. I passed my exams. I only took one paper and that is super risky.( you know like if you fail, you have to take another 6 months) But then again... I passed. YATTA!!!!!!!

Now. I gotta go study really hard or サイ won't be happy at my failure. ACCA, I've got you. :)

To those of my friends out there who didn't pass this time round.. Don't fret. Use the BPP Textbook and you shall pass. :) Really.

And there's this person I really would like to Thank... this person from a forum who gave me tips. I hope you can feel my gratitude. I am really grateful. Thanks a bajillion!!!!

愛してるサイ.

Naruto Shippuden every night!!!!! The thought of it just makes me so happy. :)

:) ウサギ

Stay away from my dreams!!!

2010-08-19T20:06:00.000-07:00

So it seems... We don't talk anymore in reality. But we were as great as before in dreams. Why do dreams seem so much better? Are you trying to tell me something? I always dream of you and it is very hateful, because I have let you go and not want you back. Go away. You still have to come back despite everything. I don't want that haunting from you.

You always want to patch things up, you always want to hang out, you are a good friend there in the other side. Day by day back here, you are becoming more illusive to me. Fading with time. When I dream of you... its like as though you never left. Its terrible feeling. Maybe.... we're cursed this way.

My mind is playing tricks on me again. It always do. I must erase my mind now and forget about you. Goodbye for now, and into the night, you left.

xoxo, Vanity

Seriously?

2010-08-11T21:09:00.001-07:00

Who can't stop going to Facebook?? Seriously.

August is here.

2010-08-10T21:52:00.000-07:00

Its been a while haven't it?? Very busy with my ACCA. FuckAduck. Anyways, I've been to MTV WS and back.. Honestly, if it ain't for the tix I got from Tongue N Chic, I wouldn't have been there.Ahh.. Bill Kaulitz hotness as usual and so is Tom. :)

My poor friend is having a hard time. Her bf is being a bitch right now.. I wish her well. As for me... I was approached by some guy telling me he is looking for a girlfriend. Yeah..GO FUCK YOURSELVES. I don't go for people just like that.. I am not ''R. L'' who is so FUCKIN desperate, in fact, I don't give a fuck. After this incident, I am having a bit of a phobia when I see those type of ppl. Freaks me out, really.

Next, I have this ex-friends blog. OMG! you should really go and have a look. SO FUCKED UP. Yeah yeah.. be yourself and I am not afraid of pissing you off.. you have zero idea what type of monster I really am.

Results gonna be out real soon. I am ready. and my Naruto boxset is waiting for me already. :) and I am on a diet... Gotta go through this.

Let me introduce my new fancy.. Hyuuga Neji. At the beginning, I thought he was so stuck up.. but then again... He's getting hotter and hotter by the episode. Nevertheless... Sai still rules. Aishiteru!!!

Hyuuga Neji

xoxo.

Teared a little.... ;'/

2010-07-23T19:44:00.000-07:00

I was watching my daily dose of Naruto.. and this episode was so touching. There is this guy named Menma.. He is cute.. sad story cuz he died.. :(

Reminds me of Mitsuru Ashikawa... <3

Menma

Mitsuru Ashikawa

Okay.. maybe I have a fetish for blond guys or could it be long haired guys.. :) and I cried in both shows they're in...

Guess I won't be going for MTV WS.. Oh wells.. :/

Suge!!! Havin college tomorrow.. better study.. I have a whole class full of rivals.. at least thats what I think. >:)

xoxo,Vanity.

Talk about people making money out of Rockstars...

2010-07-20T17:17:00.000-07:00

You know.. I just saw this ''special '' package by Sunway Lagoon.. you just pay bout RM 500 to get the afterparty passes and some other party stuff to the MTV WS that is... I was like WTH?? RM 500 okay.. its not RM 50...Is it necessary to spend money like that just for 1 night to party with the Rockstars????

Okay.. doesn't mean to insult anyone but... You will be crazy for a band for bout a few years and then.. they'll be gone either they call it quits or something... Ahaha.. Nothing last forever... everything is evolving...

So.. if you're one of those who has so much money to spend on such things.... think of those people in poverty first... with RM 500 you can feed a few homeless families.

I am crapping but I am of sound mind.

Vanity

Trying so hard.. why don't just call it quits?

2010-07-19T02:28:00.000-07:00

Sigh! for the past few weeks.. been trying so hard to get the MTV WS passes. I think I am through with it already. Whatever. not like I'll die if I don't go... I have more important things in hand.

Bill Kaulitz... you make me wanna..... I don't know what to say.. things I do to watch you from the crowd. :/

I am going to get my next Naruto boxset. and study. I quit MTV WS hunting. Good riddance.

I am going to...

2010-07-09T23:54:00.001-07:00

ONE UTAMA later to buy my next boxset of Naruto...

YATTA!!! :):)

College is starting tomorrow...

2010-07-07T19:54:00.000-07:00

And that marks the end of my free time.. I guess this semester would be uber busy for me. cos I am taking 4 papers.. Aw man!!! I have to okay..

Anyways.. people... please tell me if you found any Naruto Shippuden Paku paku Gashapon.. I want to buy...

How my job went..

2010-07-06T00:26:00.000-07:00

Okay.. the first few days was fun... but the longer it is... the more stressed... and difficult. Btw, I worked in my aunty's accounting firm, and its far from where I live. Because of that I quit my job after 7 days. Haha.. Sometimes.. I hope I know what I signed up for - accountancy.

Back to life... I am changing college.. that means no more Sunway ... Afterall... is Sunway THAT great?? Its just the building and facilities only... They're pretty inflexsible also.. *sigh*

To the person I prolly only took fancy to in college :

'' You won't know my existance anymore. Thats because I am not there. I loved you and it was a good memory..yeah, It was good. I thought I would have a go with you..but we are so different. What was I thinking?? We stopped talking and its like we don't know each other. Oh whatever! You are my salvation out of the darkness. I was in the dark for quite some time... The moment we clicked, I felt I was saved. Yes. I am saved. I know it. Thank you, sensei. I know who you are. ''

Ahh. Memories. Funny how they haunt you.

I am gonna hit the gym everyday. Fill up my void with things.

and I bought my Naruto boxset vol. 105-156.. YATTA!!!!! Keep watching. :)

Vanity.

Working

2010-06-24T08:00:00.001-07:00

I.AM.WORKING.

First time in my life. and its tiring.

Are all mothers grumpy??

2010-06-21T22:46:00.000-07:00

I do wonder at that most of the time.. but I am sure bout one thing - My mother is grumpy most of the time.

Whathefuck right?!

Its so annoying!! Everytime you see her being grumpy, you'll feel like you're so close to hell. Not that we don't understand, its just that... this happens too frequently already. My mother is also very fucking emotional. She always cry over small things. She's VERY negative too.

Honestly, I don't like her character, but I've gotta put up with it all for a few more years, and I'll migrate away from her.. HEH! >:D

Later, mother!

The Isle of Penang.

2010-06-20T17:17:00.000-07:00

I've been to Penang for the past few days for a short vacation. You wanna know how it went?? It was okay actually. The food was good and thats all. If you think there is a great shopping mall there, you are so wrong. The best is only the one at Gurney Drive. The others?? They were all run down. :/ How tragic.

This time round, we drove to Hard Rock Hotel to have a glimpse. Boy! It is awesome. Its like guitars everywhere... My sis was so darn happy as she is such a guitar fan.. Haha!

and so... because of that, I want to add these few things to my to-do list :
1. Visit Hard Rock Hotel Penang and stay there for a couple ol' days
2. Visit Sanctum Soho
3. Visit The Harry Potter theme park. ( I am such a big fan!!!)

These things can be done in future when I am loaded. Tee Hee! :D

MTV Worldstage is coming... should I go??
Reasons to go:
1.Hey! Its MTV Worldstage in Malaysia.
2. KATY PERRY AND TOKIO HOTEL!!!!

Reasons NOT to go:
1. It is at Sunway Lagoon, pretty far from where I live
2. They drain out the surf beach?? Eeew... its so packed!
3. Tokio Hotel again?? I've been to their concert on 1st May. Won't they be singing the same songs all over again??
4. Apart from Katy Perry and Tokio Hotel, I don't quite fancy the others like Wondergirls. Sorry.

I've been to the last Worldstage last year. It was held at the same place and it was good as there was more bands performing like All American Rejects, Boys like Girls, Pixie Lott, Raygun and such... but this time round.. ain't it too few?? Still pondering...

As for now, I am going to have some fun searching for my stuff. (:

xoxo,Vanity.

Ps: visit my shop at http://mytoyshoppe.blogspot.com

My Shoppe!!!!

2010-06-17T04:39:00.000-07:00

Konnichiwa!
I am very obsessed in Naruto toys. If you are interested.. please feel free to visit my Shop. :D

Click here: http://mytoyshoppe.blogspot.com

Yoshh!!!

Stress??

2010-06-15T00:55:00.001-07:00

Okay... somehow... I've gotta manage this.
Exams tomorrow, I can do it alright.

I am gonna save up next months allowance for
1. A new Naruto boxset
2. Combo snacks. I know its fat, but I just missed it too much!!!

Later!

Lady Luck.... help me please.

2010-06-13T00:42:00.000-07:00

Apparently, I heard that this time round's T7 was hard... and some say that T10 would be as hard too.. I hope someone and anyone can just share some tips. Please. I don't wanna fail again. I need to pass to ACCA.

FUCK IT!!!

Wait up...

2010-06-07T04:12:00.000-07:00

You know.. with the constant watching of my Naruto episodes... My box set is finishing.. and I don't have money to buy another one... Pfft. How Hateful!!!

Exams is just round.. and I am ready. :)
I am not going to be a humble pie saying I am not...

xoxo,Vanity

June has arrived.

2010-06-03T05:04:00.000-07:00

Its June!!!! Month of my exams.. :D

Say, I have these few sticky situations that I need to get out of:

1. Should I change college??
2. Should I take 4 subjects next sem?
3. Need a diet plan that's effective and pronto!

But I have got my 2nd boxset of Naruto (eps 53-104) ...
Awesome!!! Somehow, Naruto has really a good storyline, a little sad too.

Check out these songs : Alive by Raiko
Its the ending song from one of the episodes.. :D

xoxo,debRa.

Ps: My life's like that.. It has barely started yet..

I want to sell this thing.

2010-05-30T03:05:00.000-07:00

Okay.. I've posted this before. Details:

Price: Rm 50.00 but negotiable
I will post it for ya. I bought it from ebay, but because I have 2 of the same thats why..

Its cute.. if you watch Naruto you'll know.. :D

Central World.. I feel for you.

2010-05-24T03:18:00.000-07:00

Hello y'all,

I have been pretty occupied lately, with....
1. Sims 3
2. My Naruto box sets
3. Going out.

Very unproductive eh? My exam is on June 16th and thats not far away. But this funny feeling of not wanting to study comes round during these times, always about a month before exams.. Urgh.

You know what really saddens me most these few days?? Yeah.. its humans again. One morning, the picture of my beloved Central World Mall was right in the front page of the newspaper - and its burnt right in the centre. Why?? Why Central World Bangkok?? I've been there just last December. and now.. its burnt by those ''red shirts''.

I FUCKING HATE YOU, RED SHIRTS.

If I have a chance, I would like to say these words to the citizens of Bangkok :

Dear y'all,
I am a Malaysian but I love Bangkok as much as I love my own home. Do you not know that causing such commotion in your country the victims are none other than yourselves?? Now, I can't come to Bangkok as I always do every year. It saddens me, I don't know bout you, but you should be even more ashamed. The tourist will doubt the security of your country and will not come. And when they don't poverty strikes. I used to feel that Bangkok is such a safe place to be. That was what I thought. Please, people of Bangkok, esp the red shirts.... PLEASE STOP THE VIOLENCE, DON'T DO IT TO THE MALLS. PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE!
I want Bangkok to be like how it was once. I want to visit there every year again, and please rebuild Central World. Stop the unnecessary killing.
I will pray for you, Bangkok because I love you. I know and believe something good will happen.

A picture I took when I was there last December. It is just sad when I think about it now.

xoxo, Vanity.

Wait...

2010-05-23T20:09:00.000-07:00

I'll be back real soon. I am a little busy. :D

Alone, but feeling great.

2010-05-17T06:20:00.000-07:00

''You're breaking my heart and you're taking me down.''

                                         Where's My Angel - Metro Station

I haven't been hearing myself saying those few words lately. I mean, Its great that way..
I don't miss the days where I put my heart and life in someone else. Those days were just my weak past.
Now, I am pretty heartless. Pathetic! but.. its good. You'll know what I mean if you've experienced it before..

Just a few days ago, I felt a pang of loneliness after logging on to Facebook, I found out that I had no one to turn to.
Where are all my high school friends?? All having their ''new'' college life?? Such a coincidence??
All these people made me feel that I don't need anyone anymore, and I can live that statement out loud and proud.

AND

What is everyone trying to portray on Facebook?? That they have soooo mannyyy friends?? that they have so many likes or comments when they put up a status?
                          Or are they just trying real hard to be popular? I JUST don't get it.

Ladies, yeah.. try putting up your clubbing pics or any explicit pics and 10 years down the line when you are holding a reputable position in your career, people will just start rumours about you. and your world would just crumble. Too bad. Consequences. You can hate me now.. but its just a food for thought. Aye?!

( There is this girl in my ''friends'' list who love to take pics when she snogs her boyfriend, is that necessary?? That just disgusts other people. You think its romantic?? Think again. You look nothing less than a slut. And I am laughing at you.)

I have this confession. If you're anything close to narrow minded, please navigate away from this page and don't read any further.

I find males unattractive. I don't find females attractive either. I don't think I am human. Like sometimes, when I am queueing up for food or payment, I notice the people in front, and the very next moment I felt like barfing. Serious.

I think I better stop. I've made enemies with the world already. Oyasumi!!!!

''Heyyy!!!! Everybody shouts. Heyyy!!! Celebrate it now. ''
                                                Forever Now - Tokio Hotel

Forever now, Vanity.

I am here once more to tell of a tale.

2010-05-15T01:43:00.000-07:00

I have totally forgiven my friend. All those things she did to me and every hurtful words she blabbered.
Everything.
Maybe to her, its not like that. She might think she hasn't do anything wrong and hurtful but yes, she did unintentionally.
Anyways, its okay. totally.
Yeahh.. I used to miss you.. I used to cry.. I used to be suicidal. But that was the old debRa ; now, I am Vanity - the new debRa

I have not loved anyone for a long time since..
by not falling in love, everything that is happening around you seems clearer, don't you think?? Oui!

I want to wish my friend all the best in her life with her new friends as she has abandoned the old. Great!
I want her to know that I have changed.
I want her to know that I had no regrets knowing her, it was a lesson learnt.
I want her to be a better friend towards others, and not be that ass hole she once was.
I want her to know that I have let her free and I don't want her back anymore.
I want her to know that I am revengeful but I will not seek revenge on her because she'll get it eventually, someway,somehow.
I want her to know that I quit believing in human, I am a humanoid now..
I want her to know that I am smirking at her everyday, every moment of her life.
I want her to know that I am Vanity - debRa's alter-ego.

Vanity = the fucking heartless one with a heart for material things.

Don't tell me I am turning bad.. I know that already..

My first experience with my first box set of Naruto episodes ( vol.1-52)

2010-05-13T07:52:00.000-07:00

As you all would know, I was sick. First came headache, then cough, the sorethroat and lots of phlegm. Eeeewws right?!

When I was at home, I watched my Naruto episodes. (Yes. I bought the original box set, fucking costly kay??)
It is nice. Good storyline and such... Surely Masashi Kishimoto is effing rich already right?! He's the writer by the way.

I would love to sit infront of my VAIO and watch the whole day one shot but I have other things to do like studying and chores.
If you're wondering, why VAIO? lemme tell you why... My TiVo is downstairs and if I watch downstairs, my ''Okasan'' will nag.

See?? So its better to avoid, no?

If I am to buy the whole set of Naruto series including Shippuden it'll cost...

RM 79.90 x 11 =RM 878.90 (FUCK!)

Expensive?? Hell yeah. But I guess it's worth it..

Heeheeeheeeheeeh... Can't wait!
Anyways. this is just a random update since I am up for it..

Some of my favourites :

Fav Character: Sai

Fav Akatsuki: Sasori of the red sand

Fav sensei : Iruka Umino

... more to come when I think of it..
As of now.. I want to fill my stomach with something good from Canton-i

Duty calls!!!

Till then, Vanity.

At home with a headful of pain.

2010-05-10T17:12:00.000-07:00

My head feels so izzy... :(

Clearly... approx 9 hours of Exam Driven Course kills.. so.. I am staying at home today. Hmmph.

I need more money... can anyone tell me how to get it without putting in so much effort??

I am so Fuckin bored!!!!!!

2010-05-10T03:09:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone!

I am so bored.. forcing myself to go online just to kill time..Pathetic huh??
I am down with flu also and the library is very cold.
I have found the solution to grow taller. AMEN!!! :) now I need the money only.. Pfft.

till then.. my car is here. Bye!

xoxo,debRa

Shashins

2010-05-06T20:58:00.000-07:00

This is Bill Kaulitz.

My camera is not that pro and I am not near..

He was staring at this direction... <3

Credits to : Elizabeth, Rachel and Me. (Thanks Bill for being in there)

Xoxo,DebRa.

ps: Shashins means photos in Jap

Tokio Hotel!!!

2010-05-03T03:01:00.001-07:00

I went for the Signing Session.. I was right in front of Bill. :D He smiled. I am starstrucked...

The concert was really awesome.. just a little too crammy... :/ Popular ppl huh... typical.. sheesh..